If I took a step off this boat, I’d probably sink straight to the bottom

A blissful slumber with the fish I see in my nightmares
So heavy with the emotions that seem to give me wings
Shoved out of the nest with panicked laughter as I ascend
Dead men tell no tales and awed women find no fault
I’ve become captured in the net while my butterflies swarm around me
My door wide open but still, I’m too guarded to move out of the way
All the things I never really believed in have amped up their faith in me
Suddenly I’m playing this game but can’t distinguish my opponent

I know this doesn’t make sense, I think that may be the point

This string of words follows each line of web being spun faster than than I am

But it’s all I have